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Month: June, 2011

Pity Party

Okay,  just a heads up, this will most likely be the sort of post that will resemble a rant or maybe a pity party.

Nothing has changed. My old friends, disappointment and loneliness is back. My current feelings isn’t about the friend I wrote about the other day. This is just about some guy I may or may not like. I’m very confused.

I’m disappointed by the fact that nothing has changed. It’s my fault actually, my hopes, wishes and dreams have resulted in my misery.

Maybe I should just stop hoping. Because hope only makes everything worse in the end. If I don’t expect anything, I won’t ever be disappointed.

So, I will dabble in cynicism for a while and see how that works for me.  Farewell, Erika, the Romantic.

If only to be as innocent as a child again.

Colorblind by chemicalsunflower on deviantart.com


The Wisdom of Terry Pratchett

For this entry I will first enter two very wise things the Author Terry Pratchett said;

An education was a bit like a communicable sexual
disease. It made you unsuitable for a lot of jobs and then you had the urge to
pass it on.


It was so much easier to blame it on Them. It was
bleakly depressing to think that They were Us. If it was Them, then nothing was
anyone’s fault. If it was us, what did that make Me? After all, I’m one of Us. I
must be. I’ve certainly never thought of myself as one of Them. No one ever
thinks of themselves as one of Them. We’re always one of Us. It’s Them that do
the bad things.

These two quotations come out of his books Hogfather and Jingo, respectively, and they illustrate why Terry Pratchett is a brilliant author. He is funny,a philosopher, economist, social and political critic and has managed to write about above mentioned things in young adult/ children books. I wish I started reading his work earlier – it would have greatly added to my character development.

Now, the point about those two quotations is – first, there is always someone who has said something better than you ever will. Secondly I want to talk about education and people’s habit of not accepting responsibility.

I am now in my second year of studies at the University of Pretoria. Now, after the customary 12 years at school and one and a half-year of tertiary education – it’s only recently that I have felt I have actually learned something. It’s only recently that I have developed a consciousness of the world and myself. It’s only recently that I have felt the stirrings of enlightenment but in the same breath I have realised how very little I do know. It’s actually outrageous that it has happened so late. To make it even worse – a lot of people do not ever experience it. They are in Plato’s cave and see only the shadows against the wall. They trudge through life with this ignorant arrogance.

With this then, comes the duty of  trying your utmost to be a positive thing in this world and to take responsibility for your actions.

Photo of the day, Careful where you stand by Paintmewet on deviantart.com

The war machine called Capitalism and Consumarism

I don’t want to get ahead of myself, but I think I may have finally found a real friend. One that will last. This person and I have known each other for more than a year. And our friendship grew gradually. I think it’s a good sign. I’ve been in a few friendships where we are inseparable at first (not unlike the honeymoon period) but then it just falls flat.

I really hope that this time it will turn out to be a true friend. I think most people can relate, you have tonnes of friends but not really a best friend. Like in the true sense of the word. Not the watered down, cheap BFF the media tries and sell us. It’s ridiculous by the way – how the media dictates our lives. I’m developing a strong  anti-media, celebrity culture and -conformity..thing. Conformity and capitalism the two walk hand in hand. If I ever get to do my doctoral thesis or something I would like to do it on that. The effects the media has on society in terms of economy, psychology, philosophy, politics etc. Maybe individualism is dying out. I hope not ,there are so few in any case.

The vice of my generation

Lately I’ve thought a lot about the emotion of shame: Synonyms :mortification/ compunction/degradation/humiliation/disconcert/contrition/irritation


1.the painful feeling arising from the consciousness of something dishonorable, improper, ridiculous, etc., done by oneself or another: She was overcome with shame.

2.susceptibility to this feeling: to be without shame.

3.disgrace; ignominy: His actions brought shame upon his parents.

In short, it’s a horrible feeling. It’s definitely in my top 3 worst emotions. When I was a teenager I was constantly feeling ashamed about something. My parents where usually the source of it – so I guess that’s normal.

Nietzsche said the most humane thing to do is to spare someone shame. In Biblical times, and even now in some cultures and religions,  Honour is very high esteemed. If you have a good name, then you have a good position in the community. If not, you are ostracized. So, the expression to defend your honour ,takes on a more serious meaning.

I watched Easy A  a few days ago and it actually surprised me! It raised a few questions, I think. Must we conform, blend in and be part of the group? Or should we shun ‘mainstream’ and be outcasts? Though the movie may have focused a bit more on the need of my generation to be cool, to be part of the group. Instead of recognizing individualism.

The movie also illustrated the negative side of social media. The speed with which we can share information is astounding. That makes us careless with what we actually share. It cheapens information.